So lately Ive been feeling totally incompetant. Seriously. I am the kind of person who likes to feel competent. Ha thats a joke, because Im pretty sure all of us like to feel competent. But its been getting me down. Especially with this new year. I always use this new year to think of things that I want to change in my self, how I want to start saying and doing more of the right things, acting more mature and basically "revolutionize my self from the inside out." But then I was reading this one article the other day, and was reminded that "my general failure at self metamorphosis isn't due to a lack of will power but a lack of ability." And that "True change only happens when God transforms us through His grace."
Oh.
And then I was thinking, wow. (I think the word wow alot. just saying). No wonder why I've felt so incompetent. Because I've been trying to do God's job. I cant make myself new or whole again. Ive been trying to do Gods job of internal change. Its what He does. Thats how He rolls.
"And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules. You shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers, and you shall be my people, and I will be your God. And I will deliver you from all your uncleannesses. And I will summon the grain and make it abundant and lay no famine upon you." Ezekiel 36:26-29
He wants to change me for the better -- starting now. So now instead of thinking I can just do it on my own, I am going to delve deeper into the truth of His word and make myself the clay in the potter's hands.
